Updates

Been, what else, but busy as a new Chithi. Oh Yes! My sis had a baby girl on june 30th. Right now she's(the baby) all I think of. I miss her so much already. I stayed with my sister in the hospital and had fun being with my brand new niece. Say hello to Deepika!!!

My sister had a C-section and then recently she had to have her appendix removed. It was painful and I cant stress enough, how much we were worried for her. She says when she heard she had to have a surgery, all she thought was how will I feed my baby. So even in extreme pain, before she goes into the operation theater, she expresses milk for the baby and goes. This, my friends, is the beauty of motherhood, that you put someone so much in importance that you are capable of such unconditional love. She said no to painkillers that would make her sleep, all because she has this 20 day old to feed. I am so proud of her. She got discharged today and is on her way to recovery.

Talking of which, I am yet to receive my annual pay hike. Oh yeah! I know I shouldn't be talking about work, but WTH! Others have got it, and some like me, haven't. There are all kinds of rumors that people who haven't yet received will not receive at all. hmmm.. This got me all worked up. And then I reminded myself that this time yesterday, I prayed so fervently for my sister, that she be alright, and by God's grace, she is. And it trivializes the whole salary raise thing. I don't even want to think of worrying about my hike.
 There are always more important things in life.

But like a student who has given her best to her exams and is expecting a certain percentage, I aIm just waiting. Considering my luck, I am going to end up with peanut of a raise, and then I need answers. I need to know where is it that I am failing to meet people's expectations... In school, I was considered a good student, not the shining star mind you, but the one who always got within the first 10 ranks. So I just don't like faring badly at work, or being judged as less. Thats where it all works to. But well, let's see what happens.

Then like they say, not all doors close, do they?
:)

Been back to reading. Read JD Sallinger's "Nine Stories". I needed to read the analysis of each story to understand it, but the writing left a deep impact on me. I totally suggest this book.

So that's it from me. Wish me luck!!

On a Goal setting Sunday

Today is one of those rare days when I have lots of time to spare in my hands. I have done it all today, read the newspaper, English and tamil at that, taken a long afternoon nap, browsed the net, played with kid, spoken on phone and it is not yet 6 PM and I still have time to spare. Yes today is that kind of blessed day, and I want to log it here for eternity, so I can look back on this day on well, heavier days and revel in the fact that I lived in such a day. How is this possible? Well, I finished up all my work yesterday, the Saturday. It gave me a backache, but it also gave me a peaceful Sunday.. and I am not watching TV.. so I have time to spare… Talking about which, watching TV is such a waste of time, if one is not watching nice movies…

Anyways, there was much thinking done for the past 30 minutes of the day, after I ran out of random things to do to while away time, that I decided to set myself timed Goal, apparently, it helps one accomplish the Goal.

That doesn’t mean I could write a 10 Million Dollar ten year post dated Cheque, which Jim Carrey apparently did, and more importantly achieved, if office mail is to be believed, but I can set achievable and meaningful goals at this juncture in my life.

Yes, we are more than halfway through the year, which is why I wouldn’t call them resolutions, and my resolutions are jinxed anyways. So GOALS it will be, and here they are:

1. Today : July 03, 2011. In another 6 months, as of January 03, 2012, I will have completed my SCWCD certification (now that Oracle has bought Sun , it is Oracle Certified.. but anyways) by understanding all the topics and not my memorizing the Dumps. I will have devoted 45 minutes everyday to study other than work. As of Jan 12, I will have set my GOAL for the next certification. Phew!

2. Today I am fat. It’s a sad fact, but one that I know and can correct. In six months, on the same date as mentioned in point 1, I would have lost 4 kgs from my current weight. I will have walked for at least 30 minutes everyday, watch what I eat, and use only stairs till 5 floors for these months.i honestly don’t know my weight. Embarrassing me by mentioning my weight here would be added motivation, but I honestly don’t know my weight. I just know what I look like in clothes I purchased before my marriage. I will go and weigh myself in the nearest pharmacy tomorrow, and set my goal. Phew again!

3. Now that the tough goals are done with, lets move to easier ones, I will write at least one sensible post each day for this blog. If I don’t have anything sensible to write about, I will title the post: “Post Of the Day” to warn you, my dear readers, that what follows will be random junk and well write, random Junk!

4. I will save my appreciations and note down important things I do, in preparation for my appraisal each day.

5. As a long term goal, as of March 2013, I would be employable [I am currently employed, but I mean employable for a better role and pay], and would be looking for better opportunites. As of March 2012, I should have attended at least one interview to judge my market worthiness.

That’s it. No more. No kid related Goals? I don’t need to mention them here.. because I don’t need reminders to make amends when it comes to kid. I do it everyday and it comes easily to me. Yes, I will talk to him about protecting himself from other abusive children (he got bit yet again by a boy in his school), which I am doing now, and about protection from adults soon. Wish me luck, friends!

Merry Christmas and a Happy New year!!!

I wish everyone a merry christmas and a happy new year!!

As always there's lots to say and so little time. My little one has been keeping us all busy for now he crawls ad crawls and doesnt want to sit in a place. He can hold to furniture and push himslef up and stand. He falls a lot though, so someone always has to be behind him.

Work is going good in the sense that I am still on the Job.Got another award recently. Looks like Sanju has brought me good luck. :)

Most important update, post pregnancy, i lost the pregnancy weight to gain it all back in a few monhts, let me give you sample conversation that would best explain my plight:

While Pregnanct:
Random friend in office: You are getting fat.
ME: I am not fat, I am Pregnant!!

After delivery (getting BMI and BP checked in office):
Lady(After seeing my weight): Madam, are you carrying?
ME(Almost laughing and crying together): I am not pregnant, I am fat!!

So there you go!! In my zeal and stress to exclusively breastfeed my baby for the first 5 and half months, i went on an eating binge. I was always worried I should have enough milk for my baby. I managed well , only i got fat.

On the bright side, none of my old clothes fit me , so i have to get myself a whole new wardrobe. Yay!!! My mom's clothes fit me, so now i dont share with my sis, but i get to share with mom.

And the husband still thinks i am cute. Love must indeed be blind!!!
There i was one morning, sleep deprived, wearing nighty, smudged eye-liner appearing like dark circles, dishevelled hair...waiting to close the gate after the husband leaves for office. I am looking at him and thinking, "He is so good looking" , only i dont say it. He gives me one look and tells me, "You look cute"....

Now everything is alright with my world...weight issue or no....i am happy and just fine!!!

Life as a working mother has been interesting. Initially i didnt want to stay in office and wanted to rush home to be with baby...now i am learning to deal with it . Anyways, he is given good care by his grandparents..

So life is going good....
I saw Madagascar - 2 and loved it, but i am going to save that for another post!!
:)
Have fun all of you ad enjoy your life!!

Random Updates

I have a big weakness or Is it a gift?? I talk dime a dozen. I listen too…but I talk more, you get the picture. I worry if I am boring. Do any of you worry that way?
It’s just fine between me and the husband because he doesn’t talk much and I talk a lot, so there is a balance. And he loves me, so he wouldn’t find most of what I say boring and I listen a little longer when it is him talking. But not all are like that no?

I just realized that music makes me happy. I never thought I was a music person. But music does make me happy. I love the sound you know. Silence can be sometimes so uncomfortable. I like silence too , when I am too happy to want external influences or with someone very special say my husband, my child, Sriram….i love the bonding that silence can bring then…but when I am not in that much of a high spirit, music please anytime,……

Talking about Sriram, I love the little guy to bits and love the way he adores me. Even my own son doesn’t adore me that way. Kutti Sriram will look at me and say “vidya chthi kannu azhagaa irukku”.I would hold his hands and walk with him and he would lean and kiss my hands, suddenly and say “Vithya Chithi rumba pidikkum” . I love the expressiveness. We all exhibit our affection to kids… why cant we continue demonstrating our affection.
Sriram has started playschool BTW.

My own kutti Sanjay it well past the 6 months mark. Time flies by …. Sometimes when I think back I get tears of joy. When I look at little baby like Sanju, I wonder how innocent they are and think how there couldn’t be a better representation of God other than Children. As far as Sanju is concerned, He is moving around on the floor and tries to grab everything and put it in his mouth.

I now go to work in my bike. Yes my own bike, bought with my own hard earned money. I am yet to get that used to driving in traffic but it is ok…
SO there you go…updates from me.